This morning I woke up with the same irritated eyes that I experienced the night before. Allergic!? To this beautiful country-side setting in New England, surrounded by gorgeous plants, flowers, trees, streams, and hillsides…is it true?! I’m so aware of my discomfort and I start down the thought train: “I can’t live here,” “I’m not going to be able to get work done today,” “This is so annoying,” “What am I going to do,” “This is driving me crazy,” “I look like hell,” etc. etc. We take our dog, also struggling with his eyes (appears to be losing or lost his eyesight) to the beach on the Hudson. He loves, sight or no sight, “eating” the waves and we love to watch him. After heavy rains the past two months it looks like Land Of The Lost (or how I imagine it!); incredibly green mountains jet up out of the river and are met by a 100 foot waterfall that dashes back down through a lush gorge. It’s beautiful.
I feel better (physically and emotionally) as my focus shifts from the fears and discouragement about my “eye” reality to other aspects of my reality: happy funny love of a dog, beyond belief beauty, delicious hot coffee, wonderful company, the peaceful sight and sound of a waterfall, and the opportunity of the day ahead. Within an hour of focusing on the present parts of my reality that comfort and delight, and my hopes and trust in the day and future, I feel like I’m back to being “me.” Then there’s just love and gratitude.
What part or parts of your reality do you want to focus on today?
With Love,
Coyote
We either make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves strong [happy]. The amount of work is the same.
- Carlos Casteneda